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ould　the　Italians　be？　They　tried　that　in　'sixteen；　I　said。　Not　with　Germans。　Yes；　I　said。　But　they　probably　wouldn't　do　that；　he　said。　It　was　too　simple。　They'd　try　something　plicated　and　get　royally　cooked。　I　had　to　go；　I　said。　I　had　to　get　back　to　the　hospital。　〃Good…by；〃　he　said。　Then　cheerily；　〃Every　sort　of　luck！〃　There　was　a　great　contrast　between　his　world　pessimism　and　personal　cheeriness。
I　stopped　at　a　barber　shop　and　was　shaved　and　went　home　to　the　hospital。　My　leg　was　as　well　as　it　would　get　for　a　long　time。　I　had　been　up　for　examination　three　days　before。　There　were　still　some　treatments　to　take　before　my　course　at　the　Ospedale。
Maggiore　was　finished　and　I　walked　along　the　side　street　practising　not　limping。　An　old　man　was　cutting　silhouettes　under　an　arcade。　I　stopped　to　watch　him。　Two　girls　were　posing　and　he　cut　their　silhouettes　together；　snipping　very　fast　and　looking　at　them；　his　head　on　one　side。　The　girls　were　giggling。　He　showed　me　the　silhouettes　before　he　pasted　them　on　white　paper　and　handed　them　to　the　girls。
〃They're　beautiful；〃　he　said。　〃How　about　you；　Tenente？〃
The　girls　went　away　looking　at　their　silhouettes　and　laughing。　They　were　nice…looking　girls。　One　of　them　worked　in　the　wine　shop　across　from　the　hospital。
〃All　right；〃　I　said。
〃Take　your　cap　off。〃
〃No。　With　it　on。〃
〃It　will　not　be　so　beautiful；〃　the　old　man　said。　〃But；〃　he　brightened；　〃it　will　be　more　military。〃
He　snipped　away　at　the　black　paper；　then　separated　the　two　thicknesses　and　pasted　the　profiles　on　a　card　and　handed　them　to　me。
〃How　much？〃
〃That's　all　right。〃　He　waved　his　hand。　〃I　just　made　them　for　you。〃
〃Please。〃　I　brought　out　some　coppers。　〃For　pleasure。〃
〃No。　I　did　them　for　a　pleasure。　Give　them　to　your　girl。〃
〃Many　thanks　until　we　meet。〃
〃Until　I　see　thee。〃
I　went　on　to　the　hospital。　There　were　some　letters；　an　official　one；　and　some　others。　I　was　to　have　three　weeks'　convalescent　leave　and　then　return　to　the　front。　I　read　it　over　carefully。　Well；　that　was　that。　The　convalescent　leave　started　October　fourth　when　my　course　was　finished。　Three　weeks　was　twenty…one　days。　That　made　October　twenty…fifth。　I　told　them　I　would　not　be　in　and　went　to　the　restaurant　a　little　way　up　the　street　from　the　hospital　for　supper　and　read　my　letters　and　the　Corriere　Della　Sera　at　the　table。　There　was　a　letter　from　my　grandfather；　containing　family　news；　patriotic　encouragement；　a　draft　for　two　hundred　dollars；　and　a　few　clippings；　a　dull　letter　from　the　priest　at　our　mess；　a　letter　from　a　man　I　knew　who　was　flying　with　the　French　and　had　gotten　in　with　a　wild　gang　and　was　telling　about　it；　and　a　note　from　Rinaldi　asking　me　how　long　I　was　going　to　skulk　in　Milano　and　what　was　all　the　news？　He　wanted　me　to　bring　him　phonograph　records　and　enclosed　a　list。　I　drank　a　small　bottle　of　chianti　with　the　meal；　had　a　coffee　afterward　with　a　glass　of　cognac；　finished　the　paper；　put　my　letters　in　my　pocket；　left　the　paper　on　the　table　with　the　tip　and　went　out。　In　my　room　at　the　hospital　I　undressed；　put　on　pajamas　and　a　dressing…gown；　pulled　down　the　curtains　on　the　door　that　opened　onto　the　balcony　and　sitting　up　in　bed　read　Boston　papers　from　a　pile　Mrs。　Meyers　had　left　for　her　boys　at　the　hospital。　The　Chicago　White　Sox　were　winning　the　American　League　pennant　and　the　New　York　Giants　were　leading　the　National　League。　Babe　Ruth　was　a　pitcher　then　playing　for　Boston。　The　papers　were　dull；　the　news　was　local　and　stale；　and　the　war　news　was　all　old。　The　American　news　was　all　training　camps。　I　was　glad　I　wasn't　in　a　training　camp。　The　baseball　news　was　all　I　could　read　and　I　did　not　have　the　slightest　interest　in　it。　A　number　of　papers　together　made　it　impossible　to　read　with　interest。　It　was　not　very　timely　but　I　read　at　it　for　a　while。　I　wondered　if　America　really　got　into　the　war；　if　they　would　close　down　the　major　leagues。　They　probably　wouldn't。　There　was　still　racing　in　Milan　and　the　war　could　not　be　much　worse。　They　had　stopped　racing　in　France。　That　was　where　our　horse　Japalac　came　from。　Catherine　was　not　due　on　duty　until　nine　o'clock。　I　heard　her　passing　along　the　floor　when　she　first　came　on　duty　and　once　saw　her　pass　in　the　hall。　She　went　to　several　other　rooms　and　finally　came　into　mine。
〃I'm　late；　darling；〃　she　said。　〃There　was　a　lot　to　do。　How　are　you？〃
I　told　her　about　my　papers　and　the　leave。
〃That's　lovely；〃　she　said。　〃Where　do　you　want　to　go？〃
〃Nowhere。　I　want　to　stay　here。〃
〃That's　silly。　You　pick　a　place　to　go　and　I'll　e　too。〃
〃How　will　you　work　it？〃
〃I　don't　know。　But　I　will。〃
〃You're　pretty　wonderful。〃
〃No　I'm　not。　But　life　isn't　hard　to　manage　when　you've　nothing　to　lose。〃
〃How　do　you　mean？〃
〃Nothing。　I　was　only　thinking　how　small　obstacles　seemed　that　once　were　so　big。〃
〃I　should　think　it　might　be　hard　to　manage。〃
〃No　it　won't；　darling。　If　necessary　I'll　simply　leave。　But　it　won't　e　to　that。〃
〃Where　should　we　go？〃
〃I　don't　care。　Anywhere　you　want。　Anywhere　we　don't　know　people。〃
〃Don't　you　care　where　we　go？〃
〃No。　I'll　like　any　place。〃
She　seemed　upset　and　taut。
〃What's　the　matter；　Catherine？〃
〃Nothing。　Nothing's　the　matter。〃
〃Yes　there　is。〃
〃No　nothing。　Really　nothing。〃
〃I　know　there　is。　Tell　me；　darling。　You　can　tell　me。〃
〃It's　nothing。〃
〃Tell　me。〃
〃I　don't　want　to。　I'm　afraid　I'll　make　you　unhappy　or　worry　you。〃
〃No　it　won't。〃
〃You're　sure？　It　doesn't　worry　me　but　I'm　afraid　to　worry　you。〃
〃It　won't　if　it　doesn't　worry　you。〃
〃I　don't　want　to　tell。〃
〃Tell　it。〃
〃Do　I　have　to？〃
〃Yes。〃
〃I'm　going　to　have　a　baby；　darling。　It's　almost　three　months　along。　You're　not　worried；　are　you？　Please　please　don't。　You　mustn't　worry。〃
〃All　right。〃
〃Is　it　all　right？〃
〃Of　course。〃
〃I　did　everything。　I　took　everything　but　it　didn't　make　any　difference。〃
〃I'm　not　worried。〃
〃I　couldn't　help　it；　darling；　and　I　haven't　worried　about　it。　You　mustn't　worry　or　feel　badly。〃
〃I　only　worry　about　you。〃
〃That's　it。　That's　what　you　mustn't　do。　People　have　babies　all　the　time。　Everybody　has　babies。　It's　a　natural　thing。〃
〃You're　pretty　wonderful。〃
〃No　I'm　not。　But　you　mustn't　mind；　darling。　I'll　try　and　not　make　trouble　for　you。　I　know　I've　made　trouble　now。　But　haven't　I　been　a　good　girl　until　now？　You　never　knew　it；　did　you？〃
〃No。〃
〃It　will　all　be　like　that。　You　simply　mustn't　worry。　I　can　see　you're　worrying。　Stop　it。　Stop　it　right　away。　Wouldn't　you　like　a　drink；　darling？　I　know　a　drink　always　makes　you　feel　cheerful。〃
〃No。　I　feel　cheerful。　And　you're　pretty　wonderful。〃
〃No　I'm　not。　But　I'll　fix　everything　to　be　together　if　you　pick　out　a　place　for　us　to　go。　It　ought　to　be　lovely　in　October。　We'll　have　a　lovely　time；　darling；　and　I'll　write　you　every　day　while　you're　at　the　front。〃
〃Where　will　you　be？〃
〃I　don't　know　yet。　But　somewhere　splendid。　I'll　look　after　all　that。〃
We　were　quiet　awhile　and　did　not　talk。　Catherine　was　sitting　on　the　bed　and　I　was　looking　at　her　but　we　did　not　touch　each　other。　We　were　apart　as　when　some　one　es　into　a　room　and　people　are　self…conscious。　She　put　out　her　hand　and　took　mine。
〃You　aren't　angry　are　you；　darling？〃
〃No。〃
〃And　you　don't　feel　trapped？〃
〃Maybe　a　little。　But　not　by　you。〃
〃I　didn't　mean　by　me。　You　mustn't　be　stupid。　I　meant　trapped　at　all。〃
〃You　always　feel　trapped　biologically。〃
She　went　away　a　long　way　without　stirring　or　removing　her　hand。
〃'Always'　isn't　a　pretty　word。〃
〃I'm　sorry。〃
〃It's　all　right。　But　you　see　I've　never　had　a　baby　and　I've　never　even　loved　any　one。　And　I've　tried　to　be　the　way　you　wanted　and　then　you　talk　about　'always。〃
〃I　could　cut　off　my　tongue；〃　I　offered。
〃Oh；　darling！〃　she　came　back　from　wherever　she　had　been。　〃You　mustn't　mind　me。〃　We　were　both　together　again　and　the　self…consciousness　was　gone。　〃We　really　are　the　same　one　and　we　mustn't　misunderstand　on　purpose。〃
〃We　won't。〃
〃But　people　do。　They　love　each　other　and　they　misunderstand　on　purpose　and　they　fight　and　then　suddenly　they　aren't　the　same　one。〃
〃We　won't　fight。〃
〃We　mustn't。　Because　there's　only　us　two　and　in　the　world　there's　all　the　rest　of　them。　If　anything　es　between　us　we're　gone　and　then　they　have　us。〃
〃They　won't　get　us；〃　I　said。　〃Because　you're　too　brave。　Nothing　eve