还乡The Return Of The Native-第20部分

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e　I　could　have　explained　all　then　at　once；　but　as　it　was　there　was　no　chance。　　I　have　been　quite　uneasy　since；　as　you　know　I　do　not　wish　to　pain　you；　yet　I　fear　I　shall　be　doing　so　now　in　contradicting　what　I　seemed　to　say　then。　　I　cannot；　Diggory；　marry　you；　or　think　of　letting　you　call　me　your　sweetheart。　　I　could　not；　indeed；　Diggory。　　I　hope　you　will　not　much　mind　my　saying　this；　and　feel　in　a　great　pain。　　It　makes　me　very　sad　when　I　think　it　may；　for　I　like　you　very　much；　and　I　always　put　you　next　to　my　cousin　Clym　in　my　mind。　　There　are　so　many　reasons　why　we　cannot　be　married　that　I　can　hardly　name　them　all　in　a　letter。　　I　did　not　in　the　least　expect　that　you　were　going　to　speak　on　such　a　thing　when　you　followed　me；　because　I　had　never　thought　of　you　in　the　sense　of　a　lover　at　all。　　You　must　not　becall　me　for　laughing　when　you　spoke；　you　mistook　when　you　thought　I　laughed　at　you　as　a　foolish　man。　　I　laughed　because　the　idea　was　so　odd；　and　not　at　you　at　all。　　The　great　reason　with　my　own　personal　self　for　not　letting　you　court　me　is；　that　I　do　not　feel　the　things　a　woman　ought　to　feel　who　consents　to　walk　with　you　with　the　meaning　of　being　your　wife。　　It　is　not　as　you　think；　that　I　have　another　in　my　mind；　for　I　do　not　encourage　anybody；　and　never　have　in　my　life。　
Another　reason　is　my　aunt。　　She　would　not；　I　know；　agree　to　it；
even　if　I　wished　to　have　you。　　She　likes　you　very　well；
but　she　will　want　me　to　look　a　little　higher　than　a　small
dairy…farmer；　and　marry　a　professional　man。　　I　hope　you
will　not　set　your　heart　against　me　for　writing　plainly；
but　I　felt　you　might　try　to　see　me　again；　and　it　is　better
that　we　should　not　meet。　　I　shall　always　think　of　you
as　a　good　man；　and　be　anxious　for　your　well…doing。　I　send
this　by　Jane　Orchard’s　little　maid；And　remain　Diggory；
your　faithful　friend；
THOMASIN　YEOBRIGHT。
To　MR。　　VENN；　Dairy…farmer。

Since　the　arrival　of　that　letter；　on　a　certain　autumn　morning　long　ago；　the　reddleman　and　Thomasin　had　not　met　till　today。　　During　the　interval　he　had　shifted　his　position　even　further　from　hers　than　it　had　originally　been；　by　adopting　the　reddle　trade；　though　he　was　really　in　very　good　circumstances　still。　　Indeed；　seeing　that　his　expenditure　was　only　one…fourth　of　his　ine；　he　might　have　been　called　a　prosperous　man。　
Rejected　suitors　take　to　roaming　as　naturally　as　unhived　bees；　and　the　business　to　which　he　had　cynically　devoted　himself　was　in　many　ways　congenial　to　Venn。　　But　his　wanderings；　by　mere　stress　of　old　emotions；　had　frequently　taken　an　Egdon　direction；　though　he　never　intruded　upon　her　who　attracted　him　thither。　　To　be　in　Thomasin’s　heath；　and　near　her；　yet　unseen；　was　the　one　ewe…lamb　of　pleasure　left　to　him。
Then　came　the　incident　of　that　day；　and　the　reddleman；　still　loving　her　well；　was　excited　by　this　accidental　service　to　her　at　a　critical　juncture　to　vow　an　active　devotion　to　her　cause；　instead　of；　as　hitherto；　sighing　and　holding　aloof。　　After　what　had　happened　it　was　impossible　that　he　should　not　doubt　the　honesty　of　Wildeve’s　intentions。　　But　her　hope　was　apparently　centred　upon　him；　and　dismissing　his　regrets　Venn　determined　to　aid　her　to　be　happy　in　her　own　chosen　way。　　That　this　way　was；　of　all　others；　the　most　distressing　to　himself；　was　awkward　enough；　but　the　reddleman’s　love　was　generous。　
His　first　active　step　in　watching　over　Thomasin’s　interests　was　taken　about　seven　o’clock　the　next　evening　and　was　dictated　by　the　news　which　he　had　learnt　from　the　sad　boy。　　That　Eustacia　was　somehow　the　cause　of　Wildeve’s　carelessness　in　relation　to　the　marriage　had　at　once　been　Venn’s　conclusion　on　hearing　of　the　secret　meeting　between　them。　　It　did　not　occur　to　his　mind　that　Eustacia’s　love　signal　to　Wildeve　was　the　tender　effect　upon　the　deserted　beauty　of　the　intelligence　which　her　grandfather　had　brought　home。　　His　instinct　was　to　regard　her　as　a　conspirator　against　rather　than　as　an　antecedent　obstacle　to　Thomasin’s　happiness。　
During　the　day　he　had　been　exceedingly　anxious　to　learn　the　condition　of　Thomasin；　but　he　did　not　venture　to　intrude　upon　a　threshold　to　which　he　was　a　stranger；　particularly　at　such　an　unpleasant　moment　as　this。　　He　had　occupied　his　time　in　moving　with　his　ponies　and　load　to　a　new　point　in　the　heath；　eastward　to　his　previous　station；　and　here　he　selected　a　nook　with　a　careful　eye　to　shelter　from　wind　and　rain；　which　seemed　to　mean　that　his　stay　there　was　to　be　a　paratively　extended　one。　　After　this　he　returned　on　foot　some　part　of　the　way　that　he　had　e；　and；　it　being　now　dark；　he　diverged　to　the　left　till　he　stood　behind　a　holly　bush　on　the　edge　of　a　pit　not　twenty　yards　from　Rainbarrow。　
He　watched　for　a　meeting　there；　but　he　watched　in　vain。　
Nobody　except　himself　came　near　the　spot　that　night。　
But　the　loss　of　his　labour　produced　little　effect　upon　the　reddleman。　　He　had　stood　in　the　shoes　of　Tantalus；　and　seemed　to　look　upon　a　certain　mass　of　disappointment　as　the　natural　preface　to　all　realizations；　without　which　preface　they　would　give　cause　for　alarm。　
The　same　hour　the　next　evening　found　him　again　at　the　same　place；　but　Eustacia　and　Wildeve；　the　expected　trysters；　did　not　appear。　
He　pursued　precisely　the　same　course　yet　four　nights　longer；　and　without　success。　　But　on　the　next；　being　the　day…week　of　their　previous　meeting；　he　saw　a　female　shape　floating　along　the　ridge　and　the　outline　of　a　young　man　ascending　from　the　valley。　　They　met　in　the　little　ditch　encircling　the　tumulus—the　original　excavation　from　which　it　had　been　thrown　up　by　the　ancient　British　people。　
The　reddleman；　stung　with　suspicion　of　wrong　to　Thomasin；　was　aroused　to　strategy　in　a　moment。　　He　instantly　left　the　bush　and　crept　forward　on　his　hands　and　knees。　　When　he　had　got　as　close　as　he　might　safely　venture　without　discovery　he　found　that；　owing　to　a　cross…wind；　the　conversation　of　the　trysting　pair　could　not　be　overheard。　
Near　him；　as　in　divers　places　about　the　heath；　were　areas　strewn　with　large　turves；　which　lay　edgeways　and　upside　down　awaiting　removal　by　Timothy　Fairway；　previous　to　the　winter　weather。　　He　took　two　of　these　as　he　lay；　and　dragged　them　over　him　till　one　covered　his　head　and　shoulders；　the　other　his　back　and　legs。　　The　reddleman　would　now　have　been　quite　invisible；　even　by　daylight；　the　turves；　standing　upon　him　with　the　heather　upwards；　looked　precisely　as　if　they　were　growing。　　He　crept　along　again；　and　the　turves　upon　his　back　crept　with　him。　　Had　he　approached　without　any　covering　the　chances　are　that　he　would　not　have　been　perceived　in　the　dusk；　approaching　thus；　it　was　as　though　he　burrowed　underground。　　In　this　manner　he　came　quite　close　to　where　the　two　were　standing。　
“Wish　to　consult　me　on　the　matter？”　reached　his　ears　in　the　rich；　impetuous　accents　of　Eustacia　Vye。　　“Consult　me？　　It　is　an　indignity　to　me　to　talk　so—I　won’t　bear　it　any　longer！”　She　began　weeping。　　“I　have　loved　you；　and　have　shown　you　that　I　loved　you；　much　to　my　regret；　and　yet　you　can　e　and　say　in　that　frigid　way　that　you　wish　to　consult　with　me　whether　it　would　not　be　better　to　marry　Thomasin。　　Better—of　course　it　would　be。　　Marry　her—she　is　nearer　to　your　own　position　in　life　than　I　am！”
“Yes；　yes；　that’s　very　well；”　said　Wildeve　peremptorily。　　“But　we　must　look　at　things　as　they　are。　　Whatever　blame　may　attach　to　me　for　having　brought　it　about；　Thomasin’s　position　is　at　present　much　worse　than　yours。　　I　simply　tell　you　that　I　am　in　a　strait。”
“But　you　shall　not　tell　me！　You　must　see　that　it　is　only　harassing　me。　　Damon；　you　have　not　acted　well；　you　have　sunk　in　my　opinion。　　You　have　not　valued　my　courtesy—the　courtesy　of　a　lady　in　loving　you—who　used　to　think　of　far　more　ambitious　things。　　But　it　was　Thomasin’s　fault。
She　won　you　away　from　me；　and　she　deserves　to　suffer　for　it。　　Where　is　she　staying　now？　　Not　that　I　care；　nor　where　I　am　myself。　　Ah；　if　I　were　dead　and　gone　how　glad　she　would　be！　Where　is　she；　I　ask？”
“Thomasin　is　now　staying　at　her　aunt’s　shut　up　in　a　bedroom；　and　keeping　out　of　everybody’s　sight；”　he　said　indifferently。
“I　don’t　think　you　care　much　about　her　even　now；”　said　Eustacia　with　sudden　joyousness；　“for　if　you　did　you　wouldn’t　talk　so　coolly　about　her。　　Do　you　talk